It’s 25 days until my husband and I will participate in the March of Dimes March for Babies in honor of the life and death of our son Izzy. I’m pushing myself to write and post on the blog each day until the walk—some days a little and maybe some days a lot—in hopes of shedding light on issues like miscarriage and infant loss so that other women who go through these types of things know that they’re not alone. Please share this post generously to spread awareness!
I always liked the song “Three Little Birds” by Bob Marley like most of the world I imagine but in the first few weeks after I lost Izzy this song nearly brought me to tears every time I listened to it. The lyrics are so simple, yet so beautiful and true. Everything really will be alright.
There were times when I didn’t see a way through my grief. I thought that I would never be able to smile or laugh again. Just the thought of feeling anything but sadness made me feel a little guilty—as if I would be betraying my son by feeling anything other than the pain of losing him.
Listening to “Three Little Birds” reminded me of the truth that after dark always comes light. No matter how dark and bleak the night is, it simply can’t last forever. The sun must shine again. That’s just how God created things to be. Izzy will be in my heart and spirit when I laugh and when I cry. There will be good days when I think about kissing his soft cheeks and I smile and not-so-good days when I remember kissing his little cheeks and I break down and cry because I will never be able to kiss them again (at least on this side of heaven). Both types of days are inevitable and even necessary. Even on those rough days, Mr. Marley reminds me that every little thing is gonna be alright eventually.
My family and I would love for you to donate to our March for Babies campaign! Any amount no matter how small may help other families of premature infants. Click here and know that we’re so thankful for you!